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its been a while. really a while. its been a while that we have finished wr. looking back at the dates where we had to stay awake till 2 to 3 or even 3 to 5 in the morning just to complete the wr, it might have been worth it. yesterday was totally a rush. quickly made changes to the wr, with the help of seeting and xx. luckily, managed to complete it with the help of seeting who did not slept yesterday till this morning. and limin was there to assist in the wr. man.
finally completed. slept at 2.30 yesterday and woke up late. 7 50! frigging shit i kept thinking. quick quick chiong ah. cant even be bothered to eat breakfast liao. so rush. just when i thought i was the only one who have not come school, seeting, boon hwee, limin, etc. also havent come yet. entered the school with a shock of my life. i said i was j1 and the security guard just wrote my name there, yeah there, on the paper. then he say ok can go le. then i stunned. ok then nvm. i go class and saw like half of the class missing.
hmm. faster called seeting to double check the printing and woo ah. it was almost done. but some things crop up and seeting had to photocopy outside. then when we looked back at the wr, we had some mistakes again and we had to mobilised some other people. shit. now it was my family members. then they faster printed ad passed it to me. anyway the whole thing was hectic and we managed to hand it up a little later ard 12.10 plus. then went to mac and celebrated a while and went back to school for mother tongue.
had some op dry run after mother tongue. then we stay till 5.30 and went home so that see ting could rest. and so did i. phew. now gg to study mother tongue and memorise op
i smiled and u smiled back. when i saw u, i didnt expect that you were there. but u were there which made me feel a little happier losing a little stress about pw. especially ur smile as if it means a lot??? i dont know. i just felt happier.if there are more stress on me that makes me forget some worries, then i hope that i can have more stress so that i can have the courage to talk to u.
10:06 PM
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thanks to someone's blog, the word
NATO has become more prevalent these days, and the meaning of it is starting to be leaked out. so now, whose fault was it??? hahas... anyways, my brother and i went to eat new york yesterday to repay my kindness for helping him wash clothes, hang clothes, collect clothes and fold clothes without his help. ok la got some got. but still. shit man wanted to show you guys how big is his cheesy chicken but before i could take it, it was reduced to a pack of bones. sucky brother. post pics again another time.dying to see you??? i dont know... but i cant face you. not sure!!!!!! dilemma!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11:06 PM
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got back papers man... got a shock of my life=.= totally sucks la my grades... frigging shit!
123@$!@3%$%7(... really sucks la.. i mean ya la better than others but its frigging shit in my perspective la. fish la... what to do... i dont like to do revision when the whole syllabus havent over yet. haiz. bobian. maybe not taking up h3
found my motivation: regardless of any situation, it is a must to get all A's for h2 subject next year. i can and i will. you teachers watch out. BLEAHX XP...
i was frigging shit la seriously. saw you with your chairperson but never did i wave at you. dammit. i was still like saying hey i am going to talk to you. fish me man.. shucks!!!!!!!!! whats all these enviousness, jealousy, hatred, afraidness??? darn it all... when can i really overcome all these. hey, can i really find a time to talk to you.. i mean really one to one. just a talk...
10:40 PM
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people ask me what my goal is in life.. i tell them i dont know, i probably have no goal for now. if if i had it would be very vague and boring. seriously i dont know how long i have to take this. i am just taking exams for the fun as it is right now. i dont know what my aim is.
whether to go become a chemist?
whether to become a cooker?
whether become a slacker all the way?
i really cant find the motivation. after o levels and when i entered jaycee, i felt as if my goal has already met and there was no need to have anymore goal. i am really out of ideas. i really hope i can see you on tue then probably you can tell me something that i dont know.
2:10 AM
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give me some time.
i have been thinking all these while after a read your blog.
i have been reading now and then again and again.
your words kept resonating through my mind again and again.
i dont know if i am thinking too much or is the post really true.
but if it is true, then just a little while more.
give me a little more time, and i promise.
i promise.
but if it is not, then i have nothing to say.
i can only look at you far away.
9:15 PM
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dead tired from yesterday pw homework to do. kept harping on the issue now and then along the pw meeting. it was really great knowing and realising that we have really achieved somthing today compared to other pw lessons or meetings. it was really great. great ya know! hahas. sorry guys for harping on the work that i had to do.
just a note for all pw people out there.
set aside all the disputes, the late work, the irritating whining and the humongous work load laid upon us, what is your current standing? look back and reflect. at least you have completed PI, GPP, article reflection and at least about there the WR as well as the I&R.
there is still this hurdle OP that every pw students have to overcome. it is just this hurdle. just this hurdle only. after that everything will soon be over. what PW, what WR, what PI, you wont even be able to remember all this. all this will just be over the moment you have completed your speech towards the assessors. just remember: it will soon be over. give all your best dudes!
read a blog. found it interesting and decided to share it with you guys.
"what is important is not the result, it is the process."" it is all about what you have gained"remember! take this chance to experience cos probably you would not have the chanceof experiencing this again. so just give your all into this pw and mt. jiayous!
11:00 PM
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man got a headache. painful day. tiring. hoping for a long long long nap.
had pool with the darwins house. could still win darwin with luck but couldn't make it when played with nobel. dont know reason. could be because this was my second time playing nine balls.
then su teacher sms me ask if isaac is there and then needed his contact no. then he told me go read you jin books. then he added on that my language very poor. omg. it seems to be quite ominous.
ihg was hectic. everywhere around the whole school was like the j1s. haha. overheard one j2 student saying fking j1s. lol!
give me some time. there are some things that i need to overcome. i will do my best to look at you. i will do my best in trying to talk to you.
thats all....cyas~
8:38 PM
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today hip hop and tml ihg...what is this... sians!
its gonna be a rushing weekday for us bah... after ihg then learning jouney which is followed by intensive pw and then intensive chinese... gotta prepare for chinese a's now.. hope for the best when get back the papers.
man tml ihg.. hope i can play pool well... i dont feel like to stand there and watch them play... only gets me anxious... aiya...
hip hop was hectic.. we were like crazy in hiphop not even knowing what to do in hiphop.. then showcase all steps forgotten liao..
you were down there. i was on the opposite side. i didnt know what i was doing but you were so focused. probably it was this side of you that i have never seen before. probably you were far to in front of me that i couldn't even see your silhouette. trying to look into your eyes yet afraid of something. not sure what is it though.OO
11:17 PM
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yesterday was a rather abnormal day for me. I' m not sure why though but i felt that i was so different. went to play pool for the interhouse games yesterday. then saw people play pool and got anxious of waiting. the anxiousness in my body kept snowballing. then when it was my turn i kept giving foul balls to my opponent. every ball i gave was like shit and why does it happen i dont know. probably because i was too anxious? i felt so different compared to friday when i was playing pool with ck, yx, ts, ws, iz and others. haiz.. so sads... hope i can do better if we got into the preliminary round.
then left the pool table and got downstairs wanting to go home. most of the places on the parade square was green house" polo". remembering ck said that today all "polo" people came. hais, so i continued going to the center of the concourse when my eyes just glanced over the whole parade square. i saw chee keong down there with his frens playing some ball(later realised as captain's ball). so i decided to sit on the stone table and look. there i saw her.. man... regrets kept pouring out of my heart.. walked away to the office then walked back to the center of the concourse and they had already finished the game.. walked over to chee keong and asked what game... she was already on the ramp walking away. sat on the stairs quietly, then decided to go home. then at the bike there, opened my lock and the white angel said
hey you dum dum.. go chase after her you still can make it!
the black angel said
forget about it.. just go home.
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in the end i chased to the gate and she was already walking to the traffic light. thinking again, should i chase after her, what should i say? what should i do? crap. by the time i thought finish she was already going up to the stairs towards teck whye on the right side of the intersection. i remembered what i swore and just gave chase. i couldn't bother what i need to say, i just ran. she was there wearing on a green shirt. gave a little more dash and spoke to her. man. that instant i was like blank minded.. i just said hey. ~~~. i never said hi to you for like a while. how is your exams... she was like er ok... then i didnt know what to say so i just said orh ok bye and turned back. her face was still red. red from the match that she had. hais.. she was just smiling probably thinking that i was some weird guy trying to run and catch her just to ask about her exams. what an idiot i was! crap. should have asked her handphone no.! went back and ate dinner with my brother then... at ajisen! hahas.. lousy day it was yesterday. very lousy..
10:16 PM
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i have totally only myself to be blamed... sucks man... my chem promo was a total defeat on me... never did anything on paper 2 resulted in my paper 1 to be good but paper 2 kena sai... sian... walao i cant believe it la seroiously, why the hell i do so slowly??? dammit... haiz 20 marks gone case liao lor... cannot get A for chem???? shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really wtf de leh.... sian what to do i never study properly then like that... thinking back on the o level days how studious i was... now a total slacker.. wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz bo bian now can only study hardcore on my physics then chiong cse plus chi plus maths.... ah........................ chiong ah... no more skipping of questions..... no more slacking... resting only a while .... no more play play play.... goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
hmm collected my passport today... alot of ppl you know... lucky i got an appointment if not maybe very late then can collect passport... hmm but saturday leh... weird weird.... then is latern festival oso... hmmm.... tonight will be going to my relative wedding... gonna be the usher and relatedd stuffs!! will be so much fun!! but must study finish phy by then too... cause tml will be a hardcore day?!
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