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crap. i guess i got a load of things to say, headache is also what i have right now. information overload=D
but this is how i planned it out:
to whom it may have concern with,
past to present. a big fat liar.
i had a worst nightmare that came true in the past.
in this context, you could say it was about rs.
i know emotions should not have been brought from the past to present,
but i dont know why, things just go against me.
i hate to lie. but sometimes, when it comes down to this kind of things,
i lie the best.
present. still a liar.
you asked me two questions.
i should have said 'yes' to both questions.
if you are wondering, yes, i know what you are thinking.
a little words to make you remember what you said,
are you... never mind...
yes to the first question. that word, i know that you are going to say.
yes i also knew it.
the word that has 7 letters and ends with 's'.
yes.
the second question. also yes, or rather maybe. i know...
give me some time to think through and know you.
yes i know i said different things... im a big fat liar.=.=
time.
i dont know if there will be time.
but if there is, i would want to have some.
for now, i hate to lie.
but some time now, i wish i can have some time.
i hate myself for keeping to repeat the very same myself,
when yet im not doing it.
technology.
i dont like technology.
to a certain extent, yes it does bring people together.
but to a certain extent, it creates a social barrier.
why technology??? why do you try to make my life so difficult.
was it even me to begin with.
i guess so.
twice.
it happen twice.
yet i dont know how to deal with this.
trying to be positive minded wont really help me.
im stuck
stuck
in this deep world of questions...
~the end~
im sorry for writing this down. had to pour it out somewhere. give me time to chill. i'll be back my usual self probably by tomorrow. for now i just dont feel like doing work.. crap. still, i have a stack of work to be done. feeling better. thanks 'technology'.
ciaos~ off to do chem.
6:19 PM
